Depression Poem: Not Me

by Cameron
(Kerry)

I didn't mean to do it, I really didn't at all.
I don't know why it happened. All I really know is it's making my life fall, fall flat around me the guilt is eating me.

Maybe if I stopped and thought my mind would be free.
I can't go back and change it, because it's all been done. This life changing mistake has sucked out all my fun.

I know there's more important things then what's under wrapped. But I must not have a heart or it's just not in tack.

They were meant to be my 'best friends' and I complained to thee. But what I have done I'm glad they have left me. Because I took one from the other and played myself of another.

I think deep down inside me revenge had taken play, but that will never be an excuse for the final judgement day. I have punished myself daily and lost many sleeps, because this is not who I am and I will lose friends for keeps.

I will need to forgive myself some time, but the abuse will come one day, when the secret comes out I deserve it either way..



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Very impressive and introspective. I am particularly impressed that you are holding yourself accountable for your actions and the consequences. That says a lot about your character.

Remember, we all make mistakes and have regrets. The key is to own your part, take responsibility, learn from it and then forgive yourself. That last part can be tough but it is the most important part of the process!

I hope you can forgive yourself and that your friends can forgive you too.

Thank you for sharing!

Dana