I Feel Depressed and Anxious but Am I Really?

I have felt depressed for an extended amount of time. I am at a new school and the girls are trying their best to be nice to me but at times they whisper to each other about some other girls in my class.

I have had really bad anxiety since I started at that school. I have gone through tough times in my past before like death of a loved one and bullying. I have thought of dying or killing myself before but I have promised people and myself that I would never do that.

I have never cut and do not plan on doing it anytime soon. whenever I tell myself I am depressed I just remind myself people have it worse than me. I have been having trouble with social anxiety, anxiety, feeling sad a lot, thoughts of death and/or suicide, haven't been able to sleep lately, have been having horrible self esteem issues, and most nights I cry myself to sleep. I have taken tests and my results come through as severe or mild severe depression. is someone like me really supposed to feel like this?

I have an amazing supportive family and amazing friends I don't want to tell anyone fearing that they might "baby" me or treat me different than before. Am I ok?

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Hello! First and foremost, I am so sorry to see that you are struggling with this! Please know that it is totally normal to feel like this from time to time. That said, if it persists then I would encourage you to get some professional help. It doesn't mean anything is wrong with you, that you're broken or need to be 'fixed'. Rather, its simply a wake up call that things aren't in balance. It could be feelings that you've harbored and never processed. It could be negative beliefs about yourself, others or the world around you that you may not even know you have. With the help of a professional, they can help you sort all of this out.

Also, practicing gratitude, journalingg and meditation can make a huge difference too because it raises your vibration. You can find all kinds of cool meditations online via YouTube or apps like Insight Timer.

I'm happy you reached out and know that you can, and will, get past this!

Sending lots of love and light ...

Dana